Jan 7 2010
Reflecting on the year with gratitude
Uncategorized - 7 months ago - sharon
Today I sit here with a heavy heart as yesterday my very dear aunt passed away. For a moment I am swept into the unfairness of life and the pain that is sometimes so hard to bear. I then remember all the lovely moments that I had the opportunity to share with my aunt over this past year. Like when we reminisced about how her and my uncle met and there was an instant connection that has lasted over 50 years. The time I told them that they can never think of separating as that would burst my bubble of eternal marriage bliss. As she got weaker we laughed, we cried. She inspired me as she beat leukemia twice over the last five years. She reminded me that as a child I called her a lion as she had a BIG roar. Her roar calmed down over the years, but her perseverance remained. The sadness is there and the gratitude stands tall beside it. The gratitude for having such wonderful people in my life. Through all the hardships this year there have been many nourishing lessons along the way. My husband John is one of my best teachers. Through our differences I am learning to have space for others who do not always think like me. (although I do not always understand why) ha-ha! My son Joshua is now 18 and reminds me all the time that he has crossed over into another level of manhood and deserves special privileges. From him I am learning another level of spiritual parenting. As Deepak Chopra states in his book, The Seven Spiritual Laws for Parents “The easiest way to teach the meaning of spirit is to create an atmosphere in which spirit is breathed in as love. We taught our children to take spirit as a reality, to believe in an infinite source of love that held them dearly. Old practice of teaching through punishment and reprimand is to be avoided, he says. Setting yourself up as a punitive authority only emphasizes moral dilemmas you have not solved for yourself.” Being a child who always pushed the boundaries, Joshua has had me delve deep into the true meaning of parenthood and the old hurts that I still harboured from my childhood. As I keep inquiring into this role as parent I have much gratitude at the new perspective my husband and I have this past year and the opportunity that was created for me to heal my past childhood wounds. Clearly a quantum shift has occurred. Within this new empowered way of appreciating him for the gift of love and truth that he is, he is showing up truly inspired in life with his new found accomplishments. As I shared in my last blog, my younger son has health challenges and to him I am eternally grateful. Over Jacob’s eight year journey with nephrotic syndrome I have learnt that even though I am a Naturopath I am not in control of anothers healing. Some things are greater than me and I can only surrender to Divine healing power and let go of any expectations that I may have (some days are easier than others). So yes there have been challenges, but the question I ask myself is “what are the learning’s within the challenges?” and all I feel is much gratitude. I see that I have a choice to either focus on suffering, or on the pure miracles that each situation brings. So thank you to all that have touched my life this past year and opened my eyes to fresh new possibilities. Looking forward to the MAGIC of 2010!
Aug 28 2009
How do I hold my center in the midst of chaos?
Uncategorized - 11 months ago - sharon
Welcome to my first blog. Thanks for coming along for the ride…… It has been a testy month with my son being in and out of hospital. As a health consultant and mother I feel somewhat responsible for making sure that my son’s health is as optimum as possible. The more his body is challenged the more I feel helpless. I have been holding it together very well going about my days seeing clients and taking care of myself and my family. I know that if I do not take care of myself first, I will be useless to everyone else. Who decided that was selfish anyways? I feel like I am on a roller-coaster ride. When I am on my way up, I have a chance to catch my breath, come into the moment and focus on dealing with what is in front of me now. When I am racing downhill it seems somewhat more difficult to hold my center. Breath is shallow, heart racer a little faster and my mind is scattered. Where is the ground? Today my son is in the hospital with his Dad and I sit here wondering, thinking sad thoughts. My emotions engulf me and the tears begin to flow. Tears I have held back all month just handling what I needed to to be responsible in each moment. Many of our friends and family members called today to see how my son was doing. Each time I answered the phone I relived the emotions and tears began to flow once more accompanied by deep belly sobs. Relief, fatigue, exhaustion, want to rest, rejuvenate, regroup, be calm, and feel safe. Emotions began to flow through me instead of being stuck in me. I had allowed an incredible release to take place. My whole being surrendered to what was and relaxed into the fetal position that felt just as safe as in the womb. I discovered an incredible sense of trust in something greater than myself in that letting go moment. There is clearly a larger picture to what is showing up in our lives and we cannot see the whole only some of its parts. Surrender and trust are the whispers that come to me. I sit here in meditation knowing that it is important for me to keep walking my talk. How easy it is to take care of myself at the best of times-eating well, exercising, meditating and resting, but what about in these tough times. I know this is the easiest way through the eye of the needle and so I intend to take charge of my mind one moment at a time. Some moments are easier than others. Breathe I tell myself, deep into my belly. I need oxygen more that ever after many sobs and shallow breaths. I stop to quiet my mind so that I can hear the voice of higher guidance-this is a little tougher as my thoughts wonder to scary places. Let go, let go I tell myself. with great compassion. I know that I need to nourish myself and family well-I do the best I can with the energy I have each day. I know that great food equals great healing. It is time to sleep. I wish for a restful sleep for us all so that healing can occur-The angel prayers that we recite before bed are so calming, relaxing and remind us that we are not alone. Gratitude moves me as I think of all the wonderful souls who ongoingly send their love and prayers to our family. Focusing on the blessings keeps me out of the dark places in my mind. So how do I keep my center in the midst of chaos? By nourishing my cells with healthy foods, nourishing my mind with healthy thoughts, surrendering and trusting in all of life’s beauty and guidance, and allowing myself to be where I’m at, all ONE MOMENT AT A TIME!
Jul 31 2009
Welcome to the Infinite Nourishment Blog!
Uncategorized - 12 months ago - sharon
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