Infinite Nourishment

Reflecting on the year with gratitude

Uncategorized - 8 months ago - sharon

Today I sit here with a heavy heart as yesterday my very dear aunt passed away. For a moment I am swept into the unfairness of life and the pain that is sometimes so hard to bear. I then remember all the lovely moments that I had the opportunity to share with my aunt over this past year. Like when we reminisced about how her and my uncle met and there was an instant connection that has lasted over 50 years. The time I told them that they can never think of separating as that would burst my bubble of eternal marriage bliss. As she got weaker we laughed, we cried. She inspired me as she beat leukemia twice over the last five years. She reminded me that as a child I called her a lion as she had a BIG roar. Her roar calmed down over the years, but her perseverance remained. The sadness is there and the gratitude stands tall beside it. The gratitude for having such wonderful people in my life. Through all the hardships this year there have been many nourishing lessons along the way. My husband John is one of my best teachers. Through our differences I am learning to have space for others who do not always think like me. (although I do not always understand why) ha-ha! My son Joshua is now 18 and reminds me all the time that he has crossed over into another level of manhood and deserves special privileges. From him I am learning another level of spiritual parenting. As Deepak Chopra states in his book, The Seven Spiritual Laws for Parents “The easiest way to teach the meaning of spirit is to create an atmosphere in which spirit is breathed in as love. We taught our children to take spirit as a reality, to believe in an infinite source of love that held them dearly. Old practice of teaching through punishment and reprimand is to be avoided, he says. Setting yourself up as a punitive authority only emphasizes moral dilemmas you have not solved for yourself.” Being a child who always pushed the boundaries, Joshua has had me delve deep into the true meaning of parenthood and the old hurts that I still harboured from my childhood. As I keep inquiring into this role as parent I have much gratitude at the new perspective my husband and I have this past year and the opportunity that was created for me to heal my past childhood wounds. Clearly a quantum shift has occurred. Within this new empowered way of appreciating him for the gift of love and truth that he is, he is showing up truly inspired in life with his new found accomplishments. As I shared in my last blog, my younger son has health challenges and to him I am eternally grateful. Over Jacob’s eight year journey with nephrotic syndrome I have learnt that even though I am a Naturopath I am not in control of anothers healing.  Some things are greater than me and I can only surrender to Divine healing power and let go of any expectations that I may have (some days are easier than others). So yes there have been challenges, but the question I ask myself is “what are the learning’s within the challenges?” and all I feel is much gratitude. I see that I have a choice to either focus on suffering, or on the pure miracles that each situation brings. So thank you to all that have touched my life this past year and opened my eyes to fresh new possibilities. Looking forward to the MAGIC of 2010!